Thinking of you every day. 

Dorgy. 

My life became half empty without you. I know how it sounds but that’s how I feel right now. This doesn’t go away and doesn’t fade. My heart just aches so much. 

I hate every tiny detail that says you are not with me anymore. Leaving chocolate on a coffee table with no risk. Empty kennel and empty bed. No white hair on my pants. No need to feed anyone in the morning, except fish. No need to put fish food inside. No need to take you for a walk. No need to share my dessert with anyone. No need to rush home… million little things that remind me of you and make me sad. 

Look at us, Dorgan. Two adult people turning into tears every time you come up in the conversation or in thoughts. Memories of you are sweet and salty at the same time. Last night I cried myself to sleep. Tried to hide tears being as silent as possible, but T. felt there was something wrong. I am so grateful that he understands how I feel as he feels almost the same pain. 

I wish I could pat those velvety ears one more time…. look into those smart brown eyes… squeeze that spotty body…. 

Sleep tight, my puppy. I miss you so much that it is just unbearable.